Coolest most amazing thing I've ever experienced

Reflecting back upon this last year I’ve grown immensely on many levels. I’ve gained a greater understanding of life, its universal laws and my individual purpose. I’ve learned to set aside my ego and instead start following my heart guided by the light within. Although I’ve been fortunate to find peace regarding most things in my life there was one topic in particular however that kept coming back to me and slowly eating away at my core. As a mom I’m naturally protective of my children. As a mom who had had to guide her children through the loss of their father I truly understand the feeling of helplessness when you cannot take away their pain. A life decision being made by one of my children now truly had me fearing he would bring heartache upon himself. I discussed it with him bringing up all the reasons I was concerned but it seemed his heart was set on it. Not being supportive of my children is not an option for me, I love and support them unconditionally but this fear for him was not something I could shake. In fact, it manifested itself as a horrible pain between my shoulder blades for a couple weeks before I finally decided to do an S.T.T. session on myself. It was through that session that I not only found relief from the pain but realized why I was having such difficulty finding peace with his decision. What I saw during the session was his raw emotion after the loss of his father. The six-year-old crying himself to sleep and asking me why Daddy had to go? Saying he just wants him back as he trembled in my arms. Seeing myself through the session with a weight that felt as if it would crush me as I sat powerless before this sweet child. The understanding gained during the session did eliminate the pain and provided clarity but I still couldn’t let go of my desire to control the situation. That is, until last Wednesday night. After getting the munchkins to bed I turned in for the night. In the middle of the night I was startled awake by the coolest most amazing experience I have ever had! It was like giving/getting a psychic reading on steroids no words, just knowing. I saw Jesus before me, a million thoughts, feelings, questions, emotions from everyone involved known and addressed instantly. An instant relief for me and understanding on every level. An unfathomable experience for the human mind. Truly a blessing and a weight lifted from me as I accepted that it’s not my place to control his journey. God indeed knows the entire path and my son knows (on a subconscious level) what he chose to learn and experience in this life. The Facebook post I created that morning sums up the understanding bestowed upon me. "When you see the totality of the path the need to control each step is erased, as is the perception of good and bad experiences.. all that remains is Clarity, Spiritual Growth & Love."